today and rain

Today is so beautiful and I wish I was at home with a cup of tea and a blanket, this is my favorite time of year leaves changing, Kids walking to school, running for cover because of the downfall. Soon we will smell spice and cinnamon and joyful holidays are just around the corner, ooh I cant wait!!! One week and one day till Autumn. We should all take in little things like that more and just enjoy everyday life and be thankful for arising every morning to hear the birds and sit in traffic. A little less negativity and just let then sun shine while you can.

finally time to say " I Do"

Brad and I have been together for 4 years going on 5 May 2010 and we have decided to finally on April 17, 2010 we will walk down the isle to make us a union of love, passion and to be together as a whole for what we hope is forever.

Brad and I met in 7th grade at Thomas Jefferson Jr high we were about 12 or 13 we had Utah history together, He always looked off my papers and was what some would call a bully.

He would pull my curls to watch them bounce and spit paper across the room to get my attention. I had a horrible secret crush on him, My friends would say he is a trouble maker stay away...unfortunatly I listened and lost touch with Brad over the years I seen him here and there

in High school but he always had better things to do. And I was focused on just trying to get through my classes. I was going to be a mom at 17. That really caused me to stray away from my feelings for Brad even though when I seen him I just got butterflies, he says it was probably morning sickness, I call it forbidden love that would soon be forgotten.

Well School was done and I made it, Baby and all. I went through hell and back being in a rough sad sad relationship with Cloe's dad. After the pain we split and I thought my world had ended.

Time went on and I grew stronger but was still really lonely like something was missing a light I have always had was dim and almost gone, We moved to Magna to a cute little apartment and I had a Roomate who was pretty rowdy and loved fun, Well one day after what was the longest work day ever I come home with Laptop in one hand and baby in the other but there are two handsome cowboys sitting in my living room with my friend who decided to throw a house party, Which I didnt find out about until the guest were arriving. Anywho one of these boys stood out to me my eyes connected and it made my heart fully pound like it was going to rip through my chest I just tried to breath and get over this feeling and put the baby down and went in my room and tried to settle.

But something about the boy on the couch was still bugging. Who is that? I knew it but I just couldnt think of his name and why it was making my tummy twirl?! An hour or so came by and wow it was noisey no room for any zen sleep this was too much so like the nerd I am, I read a book on the web called the Little Voice. After being so into this webbook I heard a knock at my door "Go Away" I said. They didnt! So I pulled myself away from this amazing book and answered and there he stood this good looking tall drink of oh my goodness lol. He said hey stranger I brought U a drink and I say u are? "its me Brad! uuugh it was my Brad! He sat and talked to me for a bit then said come out and enjoy the party. Well I dont know if it was the cosmo or if it was him but I did we danced and made a few people pissed off like the girls that came to hang out with those boys.

Well that night ended and I wasnt sure if I would ever see him again because there was so much drama that came with us just trying to hang out between his buddy and those girls five days later they were back for another party lol this one was intense everyone was in and out I had been shopping all day just got a new tattoo I was pumped and even better when I seen him again we hung out the whole night it was awesome. There on every night we would talk until 3 or 4 in the morning, days I would run on 2 hours of sleep. My light it was slowly coming back he was okay with dating a girl with a toddler, we hadn't made it official yet and didnt hang out for a couple months but in may 2005 at the Sand dunes we went on a ride I scared the day lights out of him that night he was mine and I was 100% his.

He accepted my little girl as his own, his family took her in and that was amazing. Almost 2 years into it we had a beautiful little girl and that really brought Brad into a new light, He was a daddy of 2 he said. That made my heart grow to love him more and more. He is my other half he is my outspoken side and I complete him by being focused and soft hearted. He is tough and dangerous but I know his weaknesses I love him and always will he is my heart, my soul, my best friend and truly the love of my life!

It is far beyond a Fairytale its more like a rollercoaster with loops that u never know where they will take u. There have been wonderful times and really really bad times but I will stay on this ride as long as possible and when the time comes I will always say what a blast. Never Changing a Single turn. I love you Brad And Im looking foward to become Mrs. Winders Xoxo!